How It Is (with bonus tracks)

by Holly Figueroa O'Reilly

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Introduction 00:29
Hard 02:53
I'm hard to live with I'm hard to love hard to get through to and i know you are trying but you're not enough i can't get what I need from you so why don't you just let me go cause i'm impatient but i'll make you wait for all the things you need and you get so angry when I want things my way anyone else would just leave so why don't you just let me go why don't you just let me go I don't know how to tell you i don't love you anymore but i think you already know you say its too hard but what you mean is it don't come easy to you and you can't tell the difference between the two i'm hard to live with hard to love hard to get through to i wish you'd stop trying i wish you were enough i wish so many things for you you're gonna have to let me go.
How It Is 05:29
How It Is it doesn't matter how it should be it only matters how it is doesn't matter what i meant to do only matters what i did V what i meant to say was i love you please stay what i said was i don't need you or anybody what i meant to do was throw my arms around you and apologize for what never will but should be repeat C everything i do seems to make it worse instead of better everything i say makes you madder and madder but i never did learn to keep my big mouth shut i should have learned a long time ago how to love repeat C i know what it takes to keep you from coming over and i know what it takes to make you not care and i know you don't know why I insist on being lonely when i should be letting you in and thanking you for being there. repeat C he said i know what you are going to say and its better if you don't i feel the same, we came way too close i wish times were different i wish it were five years ago maybe then you and me, you and me, you and me, you know repeat C
No One Can 04:27
isn't guilt a vicious lover isn't time a gentle mother i'd give anything for one or the other right now a lover to keep me in my place or a mother to dry my face i'd take guilt or gentleness in place of this in place of emptiness how could you find no way out and no way in why, when i was right there all the time, could you not know when to stop or how to begin why would you lie alone in your room dying silent as sin no one can live in this house now that your gone its full of lights that won't turn on and you are the only one who made us smile i'll strip your bed, put your pillow on the floor box up your letters and leave them by the door but i still don't believe you won't be coming back home i can still hear you laughing in the room upstairs where only you and i would go i can feel you around every corner every wall echoes with your hello i can taste you in the air i can smell the discontent of a restless soul i don't know how to let it go, and I guess its too late to be singing this song to you doesn't that sound just like something i would do i would do anything to bring you back.
Scary 03:20
its hanging off your arm its hanging in your throat its the truth that told a lie in the letters you wish you hadn't wrote its breaking your heart it tells you what you need its the tiny beast that gets you in your sleep does it scare you? its a kid without an arm tugging at your sleeve begging you for money you wish you had to give its the one that got away coming to you in your dreams telling you things you never knew that would have made all the difference all the difference... do i really scare you that much i didn't do anything you didn't ask for i know you cover it up with humor when it gets a little scary i know you hate what you are and i know you love me but you are gonna get tired of me so fast i only give you a little bit in doses but i haven't got the dosage right cause you keep spitting me out does it really scare you so much i didn't do anything you didn't ask for did i take in the air with such force that you wished i would stop breathing?
Interlude 02:37
Red 05:00
Running 02:59
Reprise 02:21


released October 10, 2010


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